Well today is New Years Eve - looking to 2012. I am home - safe and content - but worry about my family who are out. Wondering when does a Mother stop being a mother? My children are grown - self sufficient - good caring people - but I still worry about them. Does if ever stop? One of my New Years resolutions is "to put it in God's hands". I am going to try and keep of visual of those nail prints on his hands and know he went to the cross for me - and that he is willing to carry my worry - he is willing to handle my problems - he loves me. Even tho I am not worthy - he is still willing. I want to be a better person - work to get my husband and I in a better financial place - a better spirtitual place - and what better time to start than on a fresh 2012 lst day of the year! So tommorrow is a new day - and tomorrow dear Lord - its gona be you and me - I am going to lean on you for that worry. And realize I am so grateful that you forgave me - forgot all my past - and love me. Happy New Year!

Where have I been? Started the blog so long ago and somehow just forgot about it - then today home ill and went back to read the few I wrote & realize how good they made me feel - so I am starting again. Today's quote is "Do each day what you can live with the rest of your life" I will soon be 61 years old and there are things back in my life that I would not want anyone to know. Things that I would be embarrassed about. But, my little Dad, used to sing this song at church "Are you washed in the blood?" I was thinking about that today. Those things that would cause me embarrassment today HAVE been washed in the blood. They have been forgotten - a clean slate for today - my job for this moment is to live with what I have done today - try to be honest - trustworthy - a good friend - a good worker - a good wife - mother and just a good human being - but most of all be a thankful 61 year old woman - that those things have been washed by the blood!